Man, y'all ever just have those moments where you feel like
that chair. Overworked and underappreciated. Whelp, that is how I've felt
lately and I don't like it one bit. I've mentioned before that my Tuesdays are extra-long.
Most people dread Monday but I dread Tuesday. Yesterday I left the house late
at about 7:35am and didn't get home until a little after 10pm. By then my day
was over and it was time for bed. I know y'all are wonderin' what I did all
that time. Well, I "work" three jobs on Tuesdays. And then when I was
finally on my way home at about 9:30 the Seester called needing a ride home
from work cause my Momma wouldn’t answer. Turns out Momma was sleep and that infuriated
me even more than my Seester whining about how long it took for me to come and
get her and that I had to take her to work in the morning. It’s not that I mind
taking my Seester to work. It's that instead of my day starting at 6:45- 7:00 it
would start a 6 am. I'd have to drop her off before I head work and of course her
job is out of the way. Next week will probably be just as worse because our
church starts its annual conference and I was roped into watching all the
ministry kids for each day of the conference.
My point is I’m tired of doing the same thing day in and day
out. I know it’s not just a Southern thing but sometimes I feel like it is. We
are trained not to say no. It’s always yes ma’am and yes sir. If you’re like me
than you probably say yes’m and tick people off. Sometimes I feel like I’m just
around to do what people ask of me with no regard to how I feel. I can still
hear my Momma saying, “Yes you are always supposed to help someone cause you
never know that that could be you” Whelp, some days I wanna scream fix your own
dang problems and find someone else to help you. Stop telling asking me
to do things. But I know I won’t and y’all know I won’t.
Maybe I’m just annoyed cause I’m super tired and yesterday
was rough at all three jobs. In the law firm I kept getting fussed at when really
either things weren’t my fault or I actually did the task but they just didn’t
bother to look and assumed. I guess that’s what happens when you are the lowest
on the totem pole. The kids at the after school program where a hot mess as
usual and the kids at church were no better. It’s also didn’t help that a kid I knew
from college died in a car accident this past weekend. We weren’t, “OMG Besties
and now I need to post everywhere about him so people will give me pity and FB
likes” but we did hang out in college some (were in a few of the same
organizations) and it is still sad.
But I do love how the good Lord revels himself in the little things. When I finally got home and logged into Facebook the first thing I saw:
Joshua 1:9 “ Have I not commanded you be strong and courageous, do not be terrified, do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you” on FB last night and
Well, this post completely strayed from where I was gonna take
it. It really has no plot or purpose. I just wanted to put my feelings to blog.
Now I shall sulk away and try and finish this protein shake I lathered in
Crystal Light.
I keep forgetting to post this but last week I did my first ever guest post at Jessa's blog and y'all should go show her some love.Just remember: "If you have one have one friend you can be a rich man."
Just found your blog!!
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Looking forward to keeping up and getting to know you!
xo
Christina
pieceitalltogetherx3.blogspot.com
I think we all have those days... The ones where we throw our hands up and say screw this ish and run to our mommies for comfort. But we suck it up and push on when all we want to do is quit.
ReplyDeleteHope it gets a little easier on you dear...
I think that sometimes for your own sanity you have to learn to say NO.
ReplyDeleteThis post - especially the scripture - spoke to me. I was toying with what to write today and you helped me find it, girlie! Yes, we are taught to say yes, Yes, YES! And it usually does stretch us too thin. :(
ReplyDeleteNot saying no is an overall CURSE of womanhood. All decent women suffer. :(
ReplyDeleteI'm definitely with you on the not being able to say NO thing!!
ReplyDeleteI love that bible verse. I am struggling with my professional satisfaction lately, and even though I'm not where I thought I'd be, I know that I've got God on my side, walking me through my journey.
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