"I want to fall in love with love. I want to spread warmth and love. I want to be love. Remember to give love. The world can always use more of that."Well, I'm startin' with myself. Every year my church does a fast to bring in the new year. You can fast whatever you want but the church advocates for the Daniel Fast. My pastor always says,"if it doesn't move you it doesn't move God." Oh, it's movin' me all right. This is the first year I decided to fully participate and I am doin' a modified version of the Daniel Fast. The fast started on Sunday and will go for 21 days. I shall show love to my body for these next few weeks.
But can we stop for a minute and talk about how rough this has been. As I told Bekah the other day: I haven't had meat since Saturday and I am cravin' a burger so bad. Cravin' y'all. I feel like a crack head who feenin'. On Sunday someone brought cookies by the nursery and I successfully stayed away but y'all don't know how much my soul died when I saw the kids were havin' cheese balls for snack. Have I mentioned how much I love cheese balls and like Honey Boo Boo I wish I had an extra finger so I could grab more.
Today I went to lunch with the Seester and Sherry. She politely reminded me that fastin' ain't supposed to be easier and we do it to not only cleanse ourselves but become closer to God.
But I will say that I have already noticed a difference and can't wait to see where else God take me and this. Without giving to much info I'll say that I became privy to some information a child told me was happenin' at their house. Few about a week or so I had been prayin' on what to do. I was also quite upset cause I didn't want to be involved or in the middle of anything. But as I prayed for about a week or so I just had the child's voice in my head sayin, "what if it does happen again." My point bein' the Lord really helped show me the right thing to do and gave me the words to alert the right people.
If anything this has so far taught me to not let fear stand in the way of doing the right thing. God has ordered my steps and there is a reason and purpose for everything even though I may not see it yet. Hmm, maybe this post was the fruit and veggies talkin' or maybe I really have learned somethin'. Let's just leave this post at this and pretend that I had divine intervention from God.
I wanna be like Jesus without the dyin' on the cross. That would be extra rough.